Praise be to Allah, and may peace and blessings be upon the Messenger of Allah. To proceed:
The first thing that should be emphasized is that leaving Islam is not a solution to hardships. Rather, it is the greatest calamity a person can fall into, because losing one’s religion is far greater than losing anything in this world.
Experiencing hardships after becoming committed to Islam does not mean that Islam is false, nor does it mean that religious commitment is the cause of suffering. Hardships affect Muslims and non-Muslims, the righteous and others alike. This is part of the nature of life.
The prophets were tested even though they were the most beloved of creation to Allah, and believers throughout history have also been tested. This was never evidence that their path was false. Rather, trials may be a test, an expiation for sins, or a means of raising a person’s rank.
Allah says:
“Do people think that they will be left to say, ‘We believe,’ and they will not be tested?”
Faith does not mean that life will be free from pain. Rather, it means that a person finds meaning in patience, hope in Allah’s mercy, and a reward that will never be lost.
As for the feeling that supplication (du‘a) increases hardships, this is not an accurate judgment of reality. It may result from intense psychological pressure, intrusive thoughts, and sadness, causing a person to begin connecting events together in a way that becomes emotionally exhausting.
Supplication does not bring evil. Rather, it is an act of worship. Allah may respond by granting what we ask for, by protecting us from an evil that we do not see, or by preserving its reward for us in the Hereafter.
Moreover, what you have mentioned—losing psychological strength, feeling humiliated, excessive thinking, and feeling as though something is deliberately trying to harm you—may indicate a genuine need for professional psychological support. It does not mean that Islam is the cause.
So do not combine the pain of this world with the loss of your religion. Instead, address your suffering through the appropriate means:
Return to Allah and do not cut off your relationship with Him.
Seek support from a trustworthy family member or a reliable and righteous person.
Consult a trustworthy Muslim mental health professional.
Do not make a life-changing decision while you are experiencing severe psychological distress.
Remember that many people embrace Islam despite suffering and hardship and find light and tranquility in it. Truth is not determined merely by whether a person experiences comfort or hardship, but rather by evidence and proof.
Summary
Hardships do not prove that Islam is false.
Leaving religion does not remove hardship; rather, it adds an even greater calamity.
Trials may be a test, an expiation for sins, or a means of raising one’s rank.
Supplication does not bring evil, but the response may come in ways we do not perceive.
Feeling that everything is deliberately trying to harm you requires serious psychological support.
Do not make the decision to leave your religion during a moment of emotional collapse or intense pain.
Salvation lies in returning to Allah and seeking treatment and support, not in running away from Islam.
And Allah knows best.